Happy Halloween yall! I love this day. I think it’s because of the dressing up part. As well, being creative and imaginative gets my blood pumping. I feel like a kid when Halloween is here. I like Halloween more than Christmas!
I guess it’s one of the reasons why I love gong to NYC Comic Con. It’s always in the beginning of October. So it’s like getting the chance to celebrate Halloween before it arrives. I usually cosplay when I go to comic con. If you don’t know what that is, it’s pretty much when people dress up as their favorite character from their favorite show, comic book, movie, or video game. I dressed up as Storm from X-men (also the queen of Wakanda). I had so much fun!
I think that was the only exciting thing that has happened to me. I feel totally blessed and grateful to attend the event. It’s always nice to be with my fellow geeks and blerds (black nerds). While I’m on the subject of being a geek, I decided to post two geeky entries; one about the Joker movie and the other on the Hey Arnold cartoon. Hope you guys love it. I have been thinking about doing more geeky posts in regards to mental health. What do you think about that?
I know I haven’t post much. I feel terrible about that. I definitely will try to do better on November. I know I have discuss about getting better with my emotional health. I actually went online and look for tips on getting better emotionally. I found a lot of articles for mental health tips but not emotional. I went on YouTube to see if there were any emotional health tip videos. No luck there. I haven’t had the chance to find any books on it. But I have been trying. If you have any articles, video, or books to recommend, please comment below.
I’m trying my hardest to piece my life together. My room is a mess. I feel like my room is a representation of my life. A disaster. It makes me depressed and full of anxiety. With a help from a friend, I manage to get a quarter of it done. But there is still a long way to go. And it doesn’t count doing laundry and reorganizing. I will try to work on the tasks as soon as possible.
Plus, as much as I love this blog, it tends to stress me out time to time. I think I’m spreading myself too thin and I need to find a balance to do it all. I will need to be more realistic with my time and don’t be a afraid to say no. As well, find the motivation to do what is necessary to have a happier life. A lot on my mind and it stresses me out all the time to the point I don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to face my problems head on. Even though, I know I have to. It’s an eternally battle and I feel like I’m losing every day.
Some people say I’m too critical of myself and I need to give myself more credit. But I need to get better. I need to be better. I was hoping by the end of this year I would a better adult. I feel like I’m getting worse. Maybe I am being hard on myself. But is it a bad thing to be hard on myself? Doesn’t it mean I want more out of life? Doesn’t it mean I want more from myself? Isn’t that part of self-improvement? Knowing you’re capable of doing better and trying to achieve it?
Let me stop. Thinking out loud here and I am not trying to waste your time on this entry of racing thoughts. But what I do know, as always I will try to aim higher. I have already started by getting a trainer. I’m finally going back to the gym! I’m so excited. I am looking for a meal prep delivery service that can supply healthy meals in a reasonable price. If you know a good program, please comment below. Like I said, I kicked start on cleaning my room. I even bought a new vacuum to help with the cleaning! So I have been taking actions. Small and slow steps. I just need to be patient with myself.
Everything is a process. So what process are you on? How was your October? Did you achieve some goals or were you like me and couldn’t manage a lot? Are you celebrating Halloween and are your dressing up? If so, what’s your costume? Please comment below. I love reading comments. Until next time my Michy Minions, adult one day at a time. Xoxo
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I am only going to comment on blogging but this may help in other areas as well. It maybe your expectations on blogging are too high. Like for instance, maybe you think you need to publish every week. And when you don’t you get down on yourself. This makes you depressed and before you know it, it’s been a month or more and you haven’t written on your blog. The thing is who says how often we should blog? There isn’t a Keeper of Blogs that has set the acceptable limit. The limit we set is self-imposed. I once read a post written by someone who had been blogging a long time. One thing she said that really helped me was to understand it is my blog. It belongs to no one else but me. I can do whatever I want or don’t want with it. Whatever I do or don’t do is OK.
I have another thing to say — I don’t know your age but if you’re 65+ you can get meals from Senior Services. It’s called Meals on Wheels around here. I wouldn’t be surprised that people with disabilities also qualify.
Have a great day!
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