I have been in this tug of war with my depression lately. Some days I have the energy to go to work and do my entire task for the day with time to spare. Other days, I can only go to work and lay in bed under the covers. Just close myself away from the world. Those days frustrates me and scares me. What scares me about it is I use to do the exact same thing years ago before I wind up going into the psych ward.

My mental health is stressing me out, because of no insurance; I haven’t seen my therapist and psychiatrist in almost 2 years. They say, a person that stops taking their meds and seeing their therapist, usually breaks down in 2 years max. The fact the 2 years “anniversary” is almost around the corner freaks me out. I’m trying to stay positive. I’m trying to use my coping skills in stressful situation. I try to practice self-care as much as I can just to avoid the situation or prolong it. But I know deep inside, it’s going to happen. That scares me.

snapchat-14730587256752645379201477123.jpgWhat does keep me a little calmer than usual in a circumstance like this is the fact I am aware of it all. When you know what triggers you and what’s out of your normal behavior, it makes it easier to “tame” the situation. Right there and then you can spot the problem and try to fix it. If it’s something that cannot be fix, all you can do is learn from the situation, see how you can do better next time, and when it occurs again, handle it exceedingly.

Always be attentive of what’s going on inside you. We’re usually so distracted what’s going outside of us that we don’t pause see what is affecting us eternally. So just like I am taking steps of being careful of my mental health, I hope you are too. Whether you are diagnosis with an illness or not, be mindful of your well-being. Wish me luck through this journey and please let me know if you have any “tricks” on how you stay mindful about your mental health. Until then, remember to adult one day at a time.

4 thoughts on “Mindfulness

  1. I wish you the best my friend. Hope you feel better and love the way you concluded. If you ever start a go fund me page. I will be happy to provide my small contribution towards any medical needs. And by no means I am demeaning. So hope you take it in the positivity of it

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